....black swan for dinner!!!...

...aite...ok, for the following presentation you are humbly asked to turn off your gay-dors, gay-o-meters or any devices that operate in a similar manner as the aforementioned.....you may keep yo cell phones on, no need to put them on silent or vibrate...we hope you can bare with us as this is vital to maintain the authors heterosexual status...your co-operation is highly appreciated.... :)

...so, the movies!!!! yes, i just came from there...supposed to be a fun recreational activity normally involving two individuals...conventionally its supposed to act as a bonding ritual but oddly enough it entails these two individuals sharing little about themselves as they mostly listen to other people talk and simulate reality in a bid to stir an emotional response and/or artistic appreciation.....sometimes a simple appreciation for the art of blowing sh#t up!!!! .....but sorry, i digress....

...the reason for all the gay - dor (which is gay + rador for those of you that didnt get it....yes, there are some of you out there!) antics was because of my experience tonight which i am going to relay to you hoping you will make your judgements only once you have fully disabled all of these devices and any prejudicial inhibitions...

...well the night started of with the traditional "democratic" process of electing a movie....this normally occurs with the male and female parties casting a choice or vote as to their viewing preferences normally accompanied with a controlled debate and usually followed by what seems to be a mutual decision being reached as to what the couple will see for the night....

...(i must digress here and just state that though this seems a fair process, in actual sense it is not as the female parties vote always has a power of 2 where as in any males vote only counts for 1, normally resulting in the male party watching that which is decided by the female....this type of voting system would mean that in a party of three consisting of two male and one female, where the males stick together and elect the same, yet opposing feature presentation as was elected by the female; they would still face defeat as they being "gentlemen" would be forced to succumb to the female choice....so the only way to ensure that the male party is victorious, would require a three male to one female ratio....having all men elect the same film or whatever you would call it, but in saying that.....this situation is so rare because in a group of three males, usually one of them is a kissy face pleaser and would side with the female populus so as to be seem to be in touch with his feminine side and be therefore regarded as sensitive! it is difficult to tell this individual apart from the male that is truelly sensitive but acts like a jerk due to the popular, and suggested as misguided, theory of girls prefering "jerks" or so to speak.... )

..anyway, where was i??....today, i and company decided to see the "black swan" flick [, well she picked it....so....] .....****before i proceed,could you please ensure that all devices are off....thank you***okay, i am not sure what classifcation this movie is under, be it horror/thriller or whatever, but i went into the cinema with the lowest of hopes! I picked myself up the biggest container of "the sweet sucky stuff" aka juice i could find, as it would be my only source of pleasurable entertainment during the next two hours of my life, along with snacks and all that and we made our way to the flick....i mean, seriously, its was a movie on ballet!!!!! not much chance for explosions, aliens or dance battles ( which i normally pay top cinema dollar for gladly!!!)....

...i will not give up any of the plot of the movie as i consider it to be art!!!! YES I SAID IT!!! the movie was......was.......amazing! like seriously, may have been due to my low expectation or whatever but i was so into it....it was odd and twisted and....entertaining....i actually recommend it!!! (what am i saying??)....it was beautiful!!!!!

...okay....okay, since my revelation is tipping a little too much on the ladyboy side of the playground i feel like i have to punch a dog or change a tire, or bite the neck off a bat just to restore the "man" in me!!!! as precaution i made sure there was a car mag' next to me as i type, a set of weights ready to go, a bottle of beer left over from xmas( i dont drink but you know what situation am in right now so its here just to paint a picture aite, if i had a gun i'd be out hunting ducks or even you right now!!!...).....i am trying my best to not excite any reading on the gaydors!!!!

....personally i blame the media!!! more specifically kanye west for being such an artist that he introduced ballet themes into hip hop with his whole bloody thirty minute video containing remnants of his "douche-bag..." single!!! damn you musical genius!!! damn you!!!

...but yo seriously, go see the flick...wait!!!! i actually hope u see the flick before you read this then it will make sense otherwise id probably be that weird guy that likes sum maniac in a too-too doing twirls on tip toe with an insatiable need to scratch!!!!!!

...damn, now i really need to punch that dog!!!!

****p.s. the author in no way supports animal cruelty............cough! cough!****

...the truth about lying to the devil....part 1

[Disclaimer: This serves to inform the esteemed readers that the headline or title phrasing has absolutely nothing to do with the following draft and is a further indication of the authors' waning concentration abilities....i just think its tight though right?? :) aite lets get into it... ]

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I am not a Hero, & am surely far from a gentleman...

so i guess even the fact that i love You is irrelevant...

tire from the lies...hoping time heals all with its medicine...

mind readers traverse through mine and stumble on the sentiments...

all the things i should have said, all the times i ignored the sentences...

let the world judge me, am used to the sentencing...

the memories alone are fuel for the evident...

'cause some of them need tears as the only way of mentioning...

when the past catches up, the Ghosts are always visiting...

and the 1000 words in the mirror & what they call me seem like synonyms...

they say "opposites attract", but what if we are just different??

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[.....okay seriously though, that title is dope right!? right!? i must use it like as a title for a short story or something!!!! thats why after i drafted this text i added the part 1 bit.... :) am so using it...]

Aite, so whats good with iconnic?? [ i realize am speaking about myself in the third person but thats what 'god complex' do to a brother!!!] Don't know, its like life's lessons that have been taught to me over the ages are all starting to make sense and all...it may seem like i have changed overnight, even to me, but i just figured this change was occurring over a period of time but was in an intangible state that only became evident when the change boiled over from thought into my actions... I say the last three years of my life have led to a great deal of self discovery...must admit most of what i found out freaked me, but was all good...i guess what am saying world is;

we all need time to grow....don't give up on me yet :) do not cast me to the earth....but mostly before all that, don't give up on you...[fine, am not going to do any more sentimental crap...lol...feel like i should go pick flowers!!! aite...its like 2 and ma #$$ needs to get some sleep...so peace!!!]

...original flaws...

[yo...once again lets go to that zone where we pretend am able to fathom an emotional connection to another soul filled entity, and through this connection i was moved to illustrate a state of "being" that was drawn from a moment in time focusing on a particular incident that most are, in my opinion, lucky to grow from....in short, lets pretend this is a poem of sorts and absorb it in that context....digg....aite, get yo poem face on...now!!! seriously NOW...!!!]

broken hearts beat....

joy flees from the force of the debris...

falling...

falling in love had you crawling from beneath...

birth to a love life finding it impossible to breathe....

when the "bad" is the only thing to see...

'cause you afraid of looking or letting anyone getting in too deep...

love is war, now u never kin to peace...

when you loose an angel....after that, its harder to believe...

no introduction to the company that misery loves...

killing time, so every dead memory goes to heaven above...

leaving only ghosts of the time you hope never was...

[i know....i over hyped it right?? am rusty...gimme a minute...lol...aite, now i done my daily creative contribution to the universe!!!! yes, the universe!!! keep up.....and am going to try and leave the house today at least!!!]

...truth is not reality...

sleep is overrated, life is where the dreams at...

death never runs out of time...

trying hard to kill poison...

images that can only be considered the illustration of darkness...

life iz a b*tch, the only lady every other lady admire and don't wan' be without....

sick imagination got me throwing up the food for thought...

soul mirror my complexion....

head bout to explode, thoughts running through my mind gotta watch where they stepping...

teacher always say i had a sharp mind, so am always with a weapon...

a sound mind is why i wont dance to my hearts tune....

yeah....iconnic ideas.....jus felt like being random/controversial/odd.....like being me =)

now for the party!!!! LG yall!!!

...god of war vs mk...!!! WOAH!!!

heaven anyone...!!!?? i mean, pardon me while i GEEK out for a minute...(or two!!!!)

...but Kratos is rumoured to be in the new release of mortal kombat!!!!!!!!! i mean, seriously!!!!!! for those of you who are looking for a reason to live.....look yonder!!!!!! As a self confessed mortal kombat addict (i have owned ALL versions of this "way of life" aka game) my heart found its melody again and i can hear it beating to the sounds of memories of brutalities which are rumored to be in the new installation!!! so much.....ohhh, so much....

....it doesnt need to have squishy woman bits and booty and all....NO, this is what i love...so ask me about love and you can download it!!!! LOVE costs whatever this slice of gaming heaven will be....!!!!! thank you God for Midway!!!!!! now am off to play god of war III!!!!

APRIL.....the countdown begins....

(seriously...this post needs more exclamation marks...so imagine them aite :) )

ps. Am still gangsta!!!! lol

...crowded individual...

just dropped a grime themed beat...(JME inspired)...thought id kick a freestyle just to get the ol' cogs back in rotation....aite...check...

we all made equal, guess sum men evolved....

and sum are carnival mirror representations of the lord...

nahhh... really i dont get this *ish at all...

how we build kingdoms to watch in awe as they fall??...

how we feed fist to our jaws and label it a sport??...

who the monster if we kill a killer and justify our lack of remorse??...

how we force lil girls to grow into vengeful women we divorce??...

kinda obvious how the courts racially keep score...

and how we pay life to make a profit outa war...

yo...aite...am going back in...

its like the "gods" chose their favourites...

and the rest they made basic...

the bible say; he once most favored satan....

and that affection just ended up waisted...

and the kid on high, had the throne tainted...

fell to the earth, and was labelled the most hated...

....man!...

sometimes its hard to trust the words of the ancients...

coz now we have religions devoted to speculations of aliens...

food for thought, please lets try a different flavor...

coz they slaved us, while praying to love yo neighbor...

ma bad....

am trying hard not to get political...

but its attack on my people, down to the last individual...

only when we spark is when we feel we ain't invisible...

only our downfalls do the media take time to make visible...

flaws made visual, our only hope seems spiritual...

a better future is borderline mythical..

now immorality is even in the realm of the digital...

and am gone....

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lol...aite...dont know wur this whole thing came from, i just drafted it as it came yall...i actually flow it to a rythm to the track in the backdrop so there some wordplay and it sounds probably doper than it reads...but yeah...hope i record this one though...but word to truth, the only enemy or obstacle is yourself...believe me, I KNOW!!!

iconnic out