...how to set water on fire...pt I

***the following are not actual instructions on how to perform the mentioned task, and if treated as such would render the author legally, socially, morally or otherwise NOT responsible for consequences encountered***

O.K.... enough with all the legal babble! You know, i always wanted to be a lawyer or politician but the moral implications necessary for my success ensured the death of those dreams.... What has this got to do with anything?? Nothing and everything.... you see, everything is somehow interconnected and yet not at all....and what has this got to do with anything?? NOTHING...!!!

My discussion is drawn on a phrase i picked out of a comic book (i don't read comic books that often o.k. I use them to aid in improving my illustrative skills....plus they fun to read), it read something like; "....and the waters which gave me life are the poison for which i kill the filth within and around me...."

(I will give you a moment to take that in......... shh....reflect!)

DEEP right??......

I am drawn to such phrases for reasons i cannot even pretend to understand, i play it off as fuel for my otherwise socially dormant and controversial mentality which i ensure never sees the light of day! I seem to have the tendency to focus my energies on matters that are otherwise considered unimportant by our civilized structure.... I could go on and on but just thought that phrase was cool and thought i should share......may get back to it later....right now its the fancy color box watching Hurt Locker with ma little sister "Baby Dodsy"..... cant sleep so am sketching ma a$$ off, am actually becoming good at it...

http://www.ehow.com/how_4616489_set-water-fire.html

For u mayhem addicts the above link is not exactly what i had in mind but it works too....

I suck at goodbyes, so.....uhmmm, YES! u wait here till i come back next time....cool?? :)

...rules that govern confusion...

(2days late - technically)

Alright....lets see, had an awesome day with my brothers today. Did some well needed catching up and bonding and that was "dope".... planned a weekend excursion which i am looking forward to even though one of the highlights will no longer take place but... :) now am here staring at my computer screen filled with security notifications and virus alerts which i somehow managed to instigate while looking for drivers for my ASUS en8400 graphics card! Now, my mind that is the illogical biological paradigm tasked with logical processing that i am gratefully plagued with continues to conjure up random illustrations which i will attempt to represent through my limited verbal abilities.....

(random thoughts follow)

...i guess Adam should have realized that giving Eve his rib would not suffice, she has to take his heart too... Someone once asked me if "it" was ever enough... At the time i was young, hopeful and full of life and my response was.... YES! Of course it is enough, it is all you need and nothing else matters, it is the reason for everything else... it is only now i realize she wasn't asking me to explain something of which even i had had not.... or something of which i had the pleasure of dominance over... it was a question about everything... like; is part of the truth "the truth"??... IS IT ENOUGH?? I bet my response as a youngster was based on what i valued as important and, yes...it was enough.... now i look at what i have now and my response......?? YES :) thank you God....it is enough.....BUT i still want more....need more!!!

...i wonder if Lucifer being the ruler of hell, and therefore being in hell himself is actually undergoing his punishment right now for the wrongs he did in heaven..... or will he face further punishment for the wrongs he continues to do. His ultimate sin bordered upon his need for adoration and worship. My mind just wonders if his existence as the vessel of wrong, as the representation of something that requires none of what he originally sought, now is his form of hell and he is living it everyday... why do i care you ask?? because he is... (thats the best i can do).... will look it up in bible just for the hell of it :)

...there is an order to everything, even randomness has a pattern which we recognize as "random" otherwise it would be "nothing"... This is to say that everything is "something" because nothing is nothing, simple... look at it this way, even nothing is governed by defining rules and characteristics for it to exist as nothing....ergo, if u didn't know what something was it would not classify as nothing until it possessed all the characteristics of that that is described as nothing.... The implications of this thesis could help understand the human need for knowledge... the reason for curiosity.. (o.k. i know am getting loopy!)....but take this premise for instance; even that that we can not begin to understand or comprehend and cannot confine to our rules still maintain the law of order by adhering to its rules of being and our rules of non-compliance (i.e. strange, weird, unknown etc) .... i think emotions fall into this grouping! For me anyway....

...i created this blog so i could be blunt honest with the world (or the one or two people who read this at least)...to leave an honest logical representative to give the internet a blueprint of my attic, or logical acumen... well... thats not going to happen, i cant understand half the stuff i think of and therefore cannot share it with a race hell bent on judging all that they cannot comprehend. Life is simply too complicated without me asking someone how they can claim a thought as their own when that thought is based on; words inherited, images taught and seen, ideas abstracted etc...and how belief is based on.... (i will stop here....) ....the only reason i continue to act as normal is because i have accepted my thoughts, and understand that they are NOT normal/average/acceptable....

...i promised my mum i would never marry, i can see why.... lol

...i believe in dragons (not really), i think we are in the matrix (mentally kinda), i think the clouds are fake, i believe i saw a ghost as a youngster, i really should stop typing now....

...O.K. let me get back to pretending to be normal.... what did i learn today?? In our (my) attempt to understand life, we (I) miss out on what it really is about..... life is about "LIVING".... but in order to live, we (I) must understand what we (I) live for...

Cupid shot me and my smile is the scar.....

(...for the sake of the author, let us pretend the following text was drafted in a poetic placing...lol. yes, it is corny.... yes, i don't care!!! okay, i do enough to say i don't!!!)

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hard to explain, harder to understand...

if i must, i shall...lest you hold my hand...

when i borrow the sun, i will hide its light away...

only so i can pretend it is night and i will forever dream today...

what i know, i can forget...

what i feel... i can never loose...

the sky then must feel blue...

a day before forever ends,

let us feel like it only begins....

even then...all that matters is you....

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Strangers we "know"

......did we take this whole "made in the image of God" thing a little too far!!?? I mean, why do we see it so necessary to have people follow us (...and i don't mean on twitter!!! only...); why do we need to attain "status"; why is it so important to have people look up to us as well as have people to look up to; why do we see ourselves worthy of others' companionship in the form of adoration, why do we want to be "worshiped"?

*Chances are; am not going to answer any of these questions, firstly because your ego will distort any logic directed in the offensive view of any of these characteristics that apply to all of us... even to you!!! yes, you!!! ....i don't need to say yo name!!! ....."&*#@$%^&" O.K. there i said it! see what you made me do!?You see how u just made all of this about you.... huh?? See your need for attention?? Thank you for proving my point....now, back to the the issue at hand....

When exactly did we let the fancy color box paint the portrait of our lives? Are we so clueless that we seek conformity even if it is stemmed from highly unlikely situational placings rehearsed by fictional depictions molded to vaguely resemble our natural setting?

(o.k. so far i have only asked a series of questions....well, apparently thats all life has given me, a bunch of questions we all have to respond to.....my answers, though impressive - might i add :) , are not important..... if you haven't realized that by now then stop, go to the top of the page and answer them for yourself; you know your name, you may know what you hate/like, but really.... "who are you!!??".... allow that to be my last question and your first...... )

..Sounds of someone trying to be quiet...

....I have been to the studio to record what i convince myself (and a small group of individuals) is music if not only for the sole reason that; i love to hear myself talk. Find ma lack of surprise when this vain trait proved logically transferable to reading ma own writing!!! YES!!! I have absolutely nothing to say (except telling you extensively about having nothing to say) and yet i cannot stop typing and reading and typing and reading and.....

......o.k...before we point fingers, don't blame me!!! its ma friend Nosiku's fault...she got me into this. lol.... :)

* i realize as i am the only person who actually knows this blog exists and that i am talking to myself...well i say HA! to u sir/madam as my split personalities count as my audience and right now it stands at somewhere between 3 to 7 audience members.... Conservatively speaking...

The TIN MAN on the organ transplant waiting list!!! pt1

.....If the title didn't paint the picture for those who haven't bought their tickets for this train of thought let me reiterate with a further elaboration of the header text :)

(don't mind me pretending to comprehend the English lingo or its application and rules thereof - humor me *Plus i know the title isn't catchy or clever, my argument to that is....blah!)

Alright..... so the idea is, the wizard of oz going star trek! You know; no magic, voodoo or any of that tomfoolery. Just good "old fashioned" modern medical science. Now lets drive that notion home, and bring it closer to home; am simply addressing the fusion of our (well at least my) historical, cultural/traditional ways and how we are forced to convert all that we were raised around into this new civilized world that we have convinced ourselves that we need.

STOP!!!! STOP!!! STOP!!! If u believe this is a serious discussion well; pony, rabbit, donkey, blue, purple, banana, teletubby, wooggie-boogie, squiggly line, blah blah, la la, hoo hoo..... o.k. now, lets continue..... :)

Upon arrival, my eyes fell upon something i was familiar with, something i was raised around...it was like the stars had tired of their duties floating in nothingness and decided to rest in the beauty of the concrete trees for the night. This concrete jungle lit up before my eyes and was everything i had ever imagined. I now draw my first reactions from memory, and i can honestly say i still feel my chest expand further than it ever has as if to accommodate for my last breath, a breath that never comes. I am filled with new hope, revived ambitions, fueled dreams. All this comes at the cost of me leaving the only thing i have ever valued in my life, the only reason i can see need to sustain an existence in this world; i had to leave my parents, my family.... it is for times like this that i wish i could express my displeasure with words as they cannot suffice in the portrayal of the emotions embedded in my biological vessel that shapes my ethereal being......

I was walking in a world that i could only visit through electronic circuits, magazines, books and my ever active mental cosmos, well...that was until now! Only i wasn't walking, the first days were spent driving around introducing my lungs to air which i had convinced myself was of a superior grade to that which my lungs were previously tasked with processing....i saw the positive in everything.... i had come to a land with no border, with no prejudice, a land were cupid had swapped his mediocre bow and arrow for nuclear warhead weaponry.... (i must at this point emphasize that my interactions at this point were limited to only my family, my brothers friends and a few overly friendly individuals in the flashing lights districts).....

It wasn't long before it became evident that i had just recently had the hands of customs officers ruffle through my African belongings in search of concealed contraband and the likes.... i was fresh off the jet! Everything my feeble mind thought it knew about this environment was either outdated or prejudicial about the entire populous. This was a new world...

I am the Tin Man on the organ transplant list....

Tin Man (C) courtesy of the "wizard of oz" - don't know who owns the rights and Terms and conditions of mentioning dude so....lol

"Rain on the sun..."

..... in case you stumbled upon these random rumblings hoping to take a mental trip with knowledge as a reward, i humbly apologize on behalf of any ill guided individual(s) that are probably as unaware as you are about the true nature of the current item of focus that is a set of irrelevantly focussed random rumbling conjured by a shallow mind in its attempt to disguise stupidity with a mask of humor and embarrassingly evident sarcasm!

To all affected individuals, i apologize..... a complete dissolution of any thoughts even remotely related, affected, inspired, influenced, etc...as a result of a visual feast of this word soup would be the only form of compensation relieving the individual drafting this text from further legal action on your part, which would most certainly result in your victory including fees to be spent towards psychiatric reconstruction of your logical neurological mental structure!

To sum it up, forget all you have known to be true.....remember all that you don't yet know.....

That is the only way to understand the logic of confusion, the concentration of ignorance....

[author is not legally responsible for any loss of faith, hope, trust, belief blah blah blah]

Ps. the title has nothing to do with the draft, just had that thought in my head...topic to address later :) oh yeah....welcome world, for organisations sake lets call this Iconnic's world...